The Idaho murder suspect has openly written about his mental health struggles in social media posts.
In 2011, Brian Kohberger wrote that he was suicidal and had “no feelings,” a post shows.
He also complained of a little-understood neurological condition called visual snow.
In a series of old forum posts, Murder in Idaho The suspect said he felt no emotion and “can do whatever he wants with little regret.”
In a 2011 post written on the TapaTalk site, Brian Kohberger described his struggles with mental health. a rare neurological condition called visual snow.
Coberger posted under an alias, but included several references that match details of his life. new york times It said it reported the post on Friday and confirmed it.
“I always feel like I’m not there, completely depersonalized,” he wrote. 1 post reviewed by an insider. “I experience mental fog and sometimes lack of understanding…depression…suicide.”
“I didn’t feel any emotion and with the dehumanization came the ability to say and do what I wanted without a bit of regret,” he added. “Everybody hates me. I’m a bastard.”
In another post, Koberger writes about how his depersonalization made life feel like it wasn’t real.
“When I look at their faces while hugging my family, I see nothing. It’s like watching a video game, but less. I feel damaged,” he wrote. .
Coberger is He was arrested earlier this month on first-degree murder charges. Four University of Idaho students died. He was also charged with robbery.
Students Ethan Chapin, Madison Morgen, Zana Carnoldle, and Cary Goncalves were found stabbed to death in their home near campus nearly two months ago.
Koberger, a 28-year-old criminology graduate student, Chatting When Charming Man People who were bullied because of their weight in high school.His former friend after weight loss told the Daily Beast That he became “aggressive”.
Another former high school friend told The Times that Coberger often complained about his visual snow.
“I know it was really bothering him,” Thomas Arntz told The Times. “He was basically to the point of getting nervous about it.”
People with Visual Snow Syndrome First recognized by a doctor in 1995, Small snow-like spots are constantly visible in the field of vision. That static-like vision that lingers even with your eyes closed can debilitate some people and affect their ability to think.
“I feel less mentally damaged. It’s like severe brain damage,” Koberger wrote. another Forum post. “I might run out of control and get lost in the void, I can’t let it all go.”
He added: “When I was 15, I remember wandering alone at 2 a.m. that night. I felt like a criminal, but my record Where were you?”
Coburger appeared pre-trial hearing in Idaho on Thursday. His next court appearance is set for June 26.
Correction: January 13, 2022 — An earlier version of this story misspelled Coburger’s name as Cornburger.
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